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Name: Rae
Birthday: 9/24/1985
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Monday, January 09, 2006

I've been thinking of shutting down this site. It's just one of the little drawbacks of being on scholarship. I don't get it. Why bother about what we do in our personal lives as long as we bring in the grades and stay out of trouble with the law? It sucks to think that maybe, just maybe, the things I do or say or think or believe or even wear (all of which I lay out here for my friends to read) could one day be used against me. I don't get the damn mentality that's at play here.

 


Sunday, January 08, 2006

I was at the nearest MPH a little while ago, and I was thinking that the best gift someone could give me right now was unlimited and unhurried browsing time in either Borders or Kinokuniya bookstore and a huge wad of cash for me to buy my selected books with.

But y'know, hot new shoes from the Adidas by Stella McCartney collection would be just fine too

[09:39:42 PM] This is FaDz: u got any dance shoes?
[09:40:08 PM] Rae: what do u mean by dance shoes?
[09:40:14 PM] This is FaDz: i found lawa adidas shoes made by stella
              mccartney
[09:40:34 PM] This is FaDz: i wanna buy it for u

[09:40:43 PM] Rae; changed: *SQUEAL*

These babies are waiting for me in Melbourne. Thank you babe!

Okay, enough bragging. Bye kids!


Thursday, January 05, 2006

Currently Reading
Freakonomics : A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything
By Steven D. Levitt, Stephen J. Dubner
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I have never been so excited to be studying economics  
It's a good read, seriously.

[10:16:20 AM] Rae: ooh, i got this book called freakonomics
[10:16:24 AM] elaine: ...
[10:16:36 AM] elaine: that is the nerdiest thing i've ever
              heard you go 'ooh' after.

Another reason for wanting desperately to go back to Melbourne: I am bored of not having anything definite to do each day. I want some structure in my life. I want to go back to class and learn. This might explain why I'm already starting to look for textbooks. Can someone please tell me why textbooks are so bloody expensive in Australia? (Actually, I can think of a few economics-related answers, courtesy of Ms. Raja back in Sunway but meh, never mind). 3 out of the 4 textbooks I need this semester are all priced at over AUD100. Babi-ness. I'd better be able to find most of them here.

Fellow budak scholar, is my mother right in saying that we're getting a book allowance for this year too? I think she's wrong but heh, I'm hoping she's right.


Sunday, January 01, 2006

The brother has yet to cease doing really immature things.

Yesterday - my shorts were tossed in the small trash can in my room.
Today - my e-mail address was deleted from the sign in menu on MSN Messenger.

My foot cream from The Body Shop is still missing. No prizes for guessing who's probably behind it; I know exactly where I left it and it's not there anymore.

I really don't know what else to say or think. I'm still giving the mother the cold shoulder simply because I'm sick and tired of her siding him. If I say anything to her about what he's been doing, I'll just get even more pissed off because she'll just mutter something about "Gaduh la lagi" blah blah blah and not tell him off or something. Same old same old.

I told Fadz about how all my life, I was taught to mengalah (give in) to whatever my brother wanted simply because he was the younger one. Fadz was incredulous because normally it's the other way around. The younger one should give in to the older sibling and respect them. That was what he was taught; from what I can see, that was what Mazue and Haddy's siblings were taught, same goes for Ika. Fadz has seen for himself what a brat my brother can be and how disrespectful he is towards me. He told me that if he ever treated his two older sisters the way my brother treated me the night we were at A&W after the Linkin Park concert, his father would've given him a tight slap across the face. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case in my family. My brother always got his way; no one would've scolded him for treating me like that.

I've always felt like I just didn't belong in this family. I don't think anyone really made me feel wanted.


new year resolutions and other thoughts

New Year's Eve was spent at Adrian's bbq. Very fun. Adrian made this killer sauce to go with the meat and chicken; it's just mayo and parsley but we were all licking the sauce while waiting for the meat to cook, it was that good. Lan had the honour of being the first one to make a fool of himself in 2006 - when he salam Adrian's mum just before we left, he actually said to her "Thanks for coming!"

o_0

Cue much laughter from everyone around, and a bemused look on Adrian's mum's face.

Resolutions, so far:
- Visit one interesting place in Melbourne each month.
- Finally make my way to Sydney to see Arif (and meet his housemates, hehe).

Considering the fact that my resolutions so far involve travel, I'm wondering if I should splurge on that guidebook to Australia that I found in Borders. The price is a bit steep, in my opinion - around RM90. What I liked about it was that it had loads of details about the various places worth visiting in Australia; things like how to get there (they actually tell which you which trams to take and from what street), how much admission tickets cost, what the price range is (for restaurants) and best of all, whether that place is really worth visiting. According to that book, the Melbourne Aquarium is seriously overrated. Ika disagrees, but the woman does have a thing for sharks so yeah  Anyway, I figured that the book would be a really handy thing to have lying around for the next two years since it covers all the different states in Australia.

I am so over being in Malaysia. I want to go back to Melbourne. I'm sick of being in the presence of my immediate family - read: mother and brother. I want to go back to Melbourne with Lan and Mazue in my suitcase; they're the two people I miss most when I'm there anyway.

The boyfriend's going back to Melbourne tonight, but I'm trying not to think about it too much. I won't be able to talk to him for at least a week since his mother and sister are going with him and they'll be keeping him occupied, and texting will be a problem considering the fact that my damn mother didn't change my Maxis account (which she pays for) from a corporate one to an individual one before the deadline they gave her and I'll be using a Celcom prepaid line until she fixes the problem, IF she does. The prepaid account has about RM4 worth of credit left. Did I mention that my mother is refusing to give me money?

I want to go back to Melbourne, dammit!

/edit: If I do get that guidebook, I'll be using the credit card to pay for it. It might seem a bit spoilt of me to complain that my mother doesn't give me any money, then turn around and charge things on the credit card that she gave me. Look at it this way: do mamak stalls accept credit cards? I spend most of my money on food when I go out, and on the other essentials (toiletries, etc) that I cannot wait until the weekend (the only time my mother is around) to buy. The food situation cannot always be remedied by eating at home, not when you're like me and you get headaches and nausea when you go too long between meals. It is a bitch not to have cash on hand. I miss being able to EFTPOS things.

 



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